Bitch!

Bitch

I found the traditional sketch for this in a pile the other day and felt the inclination to finish it off.

After everything that happened lately, I feel it’s pretty fitting too.

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The reason I’ve been ‘off’

I wasn’t sure if I should write this blog entry or not, but I’ve always felt like I should speak my mind as it has always helped me to recover and recuperate from my negative experiences in the past. Actually, this entry is a mirror from my journal over on DeviantArt and while over there, I don’t feel like I can name who this is about; my blog is my ‘safe space’ and I can easily point that this journal is about DrPStripes on DeviantArt

Something has been going on lately between myself and a former friend that has left a bitter feeling behind.

The aspect of this that makes it difficult to talk about openly, if one of the major points that had become a problem. The former friend had added (more or less) all of my other friends here on DeviantArt and twitter that either draws or has ever drawn anything related to anthro and furry art. At first, this felt like it was good fun; building a little community around us, but then it just got a bit strange. They would talk with friends of mine that I have known for over 14 years that don’t even draw anymore, trying to get them to do art trades with them or draw gift art for them and make them feel really uncomfortable with dragging up the past for them – and drawing the wrong characters for them as their Fursona, but that’s another point – which didn’t sit very well for me as I felt somehow responsible for the fact that I had mentioned them once in a conversation about anthro art and my original influences; which I figured was a safe conversation to have. Clearly not.

I know I can’t control what other people do, but it really felt like classic stalker tactics. Adding all my friends and trying to push the people I am close to out of my life. There was some drama started by this former friend between my sister and I when they messaged her accusing her of tracing artwork with the adage of ‘Jenn said you traced’ (paraphrasing) thankfully my sister and I are really close and the plan to tear us apart backfired.

Another tactic of control was to draw art for me and call it a Trade; even though we never agreed to do such a thing – it felt like a way to get free art from me or to back me into a corner making me wonder if we HAD agreed to another trade or not – it is something that I noticed he was doing with other people which was the only way I felt free from my confusion. There were other instances where when talking about trades the adage of ‘we can do one/something’ about them and when I did say no, I was met with one word answers and guilt trippy replies like ‘oh’ or ‘k’ which made me feel bad for having said no. Something that I already struggle with. They even went so far as to ask if his Fursona could have a crush on one. While telling me he fancied another of our friends.

There was a conversation between us that enlightened me to his egotistical attitude too, which had somehow evaded me in the years we had been friends. The statement of ‘Why do people flock to me like I am some sort of Art Messiah’ things were already getting difficult to cope with at this point, but calling yourself an art God when your art is average didn’t sit too well with me. I don’t understand how someone can adopt such a ‘holier than thou’ attitude towards art when everything looks rushed – but maybe my bitterness is clouding my judgement.

I don’t know if I should speak of others experiences with this guy, but I am not the only one who has issues with their attitude and behaviour. There are ex-friends who are constantly blasted and have to suffer his ‘wrath’ and current friends who are going through the ‘trade’ confusion.

it has honestly felt a bit like a nightmare lately and I am glad that we’ve parted ways so I don’t have to hear how great his sub-par characters are anymore or that he is better at art then other artists I have since come to appreciate and admire, who I didn’t feel like I could before cause it would have upset this former friend.

What the issue is now, is that because he has become mutual with more or less everyone I know on here (that does anthro art) it feels like he is unavoidable, even though he is blocked on here. (And everywhere else as far as I know) Which makes coming here fill me with terrible anxiety. im trying to work my way through it, but it’s difficult after such an all consuming part of dA.

Ive not mentioned this former friend by name, because of the mutuals we share, but I’d be happy to let you know via note if you wish to know.
If you feel you know who it is, I’d rather not have to deal with any fallout from this as this journal was purely written to help me feel better and get things off my mind that we’re keeping me awake at night.

Ill probably add to this when I feel like I need or want to say more about my experiences.

Art Trades

 

Since moving house and returning to the world of art and dA, I decided to do a bunch of art trades – and here they all are!

If you’d like to know about any of the individual characters or pieces of art, please let me know and I will be happy to tell you who the characters belong too~

It was wonderful to be able to draw these for people and get back into the swing of drawing while in the new house.

 

Friday Feature – DrPStripes

This weeks Friday Feature is from DrPStripes

Artist showcase! Share with us: Your favourite images

1. What compelled you first start drawing and creating?

Both of my Brothers and Cartoons on tv.

2. Do you have any future plans for your artwork?

Right now I’m a College Student Doing Concept art. So when I’m finished, i might either go to UTD or Do a Webcomic or all together.

3. What sort of media do you use to create your artwork? How long does it take you to complete a piece of artwork?

Mostly Sketchbooks, Flash cards and Tablet. It would take me Less than 2-3 hours to make something good.

4. What inspired you to draw? Do you admire any other artists?

Yes I do! Whom i Admire is Newspaper Comic artists, Talented Furry artists, Manga Artists and Cartoonists.

5. Do you have any tips for any aspiring artists – beyond the usual ‘practise daily’? (These tips don’t have to be art creation related.)

The usual Follow your Dreams, But don’t take things or life seriously. Enjoy what you love a lot, Be Weird!

6. What is your fondest artist memory? (eg – An art trade you were really proud of/pleased with, your first commission, etc)

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7. Anything else you would like to tell our readers?

Anyone can be a artist. but don’t be like the bad ones who do it for Views, Horniness, think they’re cool or the best, or for Attention. Be yourself and be creative.


 

Many thanks to DrPStripes for taking the time to answer these questions for the Friday Feature and if you’d like to be featured on the blog then please, don’t hesitate to get in contact.

Feature Friday – Falling-away-from-me

This weeks Friday Feature is from Falling-Away-From-Me

Artist showcase! Share with us: Your favourite images

1. What compelled you first start drawing and creating?

My mama! I don’t remember how old I was but I remember her painting with watercolour for one of her college courses and I thought, “I like that…” Ha! My earliest memory of creating was when I was five or six and I stayed up ALL NIGHT creating a story book. It was a story of a cat and dog falling in love and starting a family…I KNOW, RIGHT?! I drew and coloured like 25 pages of this messed up story and I wish I still had it! I was ever so proud.

2. Do you have any future plans for your artwork?

Nope! I used to draw A LOT. Sketching, inking, scanning, and colouring…I honestly miss it all but at this point I do not have concrete plans except for sketching when I am inspired.

3. What sort of media do you use to create your artwork? How long does it take you to complete a piece of artwork?

Pencil and paper! Back in the day, Photoshop was my main media but since I moved from my parents x amount of years ago and there is a subscription for Photoshop…well…some things just change. Plus I don’t have a scanner, boo. A sketch could take me up to an hour or so – depending how detailed I wish to make it. I definitely (and sadly) do not have the creativity that my teen self had.
If I am feeling rather inspired, oil paints! When I paint, I ALWAYS put in a musical. I don’t know why but it is my go-to background noise.

4. What inspired you to draw? Do you admire any other artists?

Well, I suppose it goes back to seeing my Mom paint. I liked the idea of creating something and saying, “I made this.” I have always struggled with words and explaining stuff so to be able to transmit something to paper that comes from my mind is liberating.

I admire(d) so many artists! I could make a big ol’ list! For time’s sake, my earliest admiree (is that a word…?) and inspiration was Kristin Eriksen aka Twira from deviantART. Her art…my goodness I cannot even explain it. It was beautiful and personal. I wish she had continued to stay but alas…

5. Do you have any tips for any aspiring artists – beyond the usual ‘practise daily’? (These tips don’t have to be art creation related.)

I know you said beyond “practice daily” but practice!!! I remember how I first drew figures and it is SO laughable! I kept at it and improving by analyzing how other artists pulled off drawing this or that and it worked. I made it my own and found my style.

On a more personal level: It is okay to say no! I will never admit to being the greatest artist in the world but I do not think my art is too bad. When friends, family, even randos see what I draw…I am bombarded with “requests”. “Omg, will you draw me like that?!” “You have to design my next tattoo!” “I would like you to draw my grandchildren.” “Here is a picture of my pet/child. Paint it!” UGH! No!!!!! This is something that drives me BONKERS!!! I draw for ME. It is a little hobby of mine that I like to keep to myself.

6. What is your fondest artist memory? (eg – An art trade you were really proud of/pleased with, your first commission, etc)

deviantART days. Man, the friends I made on that website…My deviantART days were some of the best days of my life. The support, the laughs, the trials, the encouragement. Like right now, I am reviewing my old journals and reading through the comments…it makes me teary and longing for those times again. I will never forget them or the people I bonded with.

7. Anything else you would like to tell our readers?

Don’t stop! I made this mistake and now I am struggling with finding my “mojo” so to say. I used to be able to draw for hours and hours without a thought in the world. And now…it is like a permanent artist block…almost. I get my moments of inspiration but I cannot help but wonder where I would be now if I had not stopped.

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Mint and Pertwee – Being Stupid.

Many thanks to Falling-Away-From-Me for taking the time to answer these questions for the Friday Feature and if you’d like to be featured on the blog then please, don’t hesitate to get in contact.

Miokath Reconfigured

Miokath Reconfigured

I wanted to give Jenn an alternative coat that was much more ‘goth’ than her own pink and blue; but I like pink and blue!
I also wanted to ‘revamp’ Miokath again; who is the Cenobite version of Jenn.
So I figured why not roll both into one?

Miokath is the ‘persona’ that I have paired up with Pinhead – he stole a part of her soul when he went on a date with her and this is what he ended up creating from that part of her soul.
A play thing to twist to his own ends.

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Because Miokath is based off Jenn, her reconfiguration is based on my own fears of blindness and losing the use of her hands.
I’m pretty pleased with how this turned out, especially seeing as it’s based on art from 2006!

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Initial Sketch of Miokath from 2006