Hi guys,

Been a bit again. It seems whenever I resolved to update the blog more often I forget about it and have to do some sort of grovelling whenever I do come to post here. So maybe I should just stop trying to make that dedicated effort and just post whenever inspiration hits!

After a good while of feeling a bit empty on the fangirling front, I got myself back into my oldest fandom; Aliens.

It’s not a fandom that I tend to do much visual stuff over, mostly becuase I am intimidated by the metric fuck-ton of good artists out there that can do the series justice.

Instead, I write bad fanfiction for it. Haha.

I’ve recently started something called the ‘My 500 words’ challenge. Which is exactly that. You write 500 words a day, at the very least. This is to help me try and get back into the habit of writing again. Fanfiction used to be the thing that kept me going and I’ve been pretty neglectful over it in favour of drawing in recent years. But I felt like picking the hobby up again; especially after the last bout of drama and honestly, I just get a bit pissed off with everything furry. This isn’t anything new. I’ll go back to it at some point, I usually do. I’m just fed up of the imature mentality behind the vasy majority of the furry fandom so I’ll just… leave it be.

So, because of the 500 word challenge, I’ve been doing pretty well at getting things churned out. I’ve written the first of many flash fictions with Lucreace; we’ve got a prompt list and are writing some short stories to go with them. She for 40k Space Marines and I for Aliens. Giving ourselves a 2500 word limit and a week (more or less) to get something done. I’ve only done one, but it’s been a good challenge so far and I am enjoying it greatly – I now have an idea for this weeks challenge so I’m going to get right on it after this blog post.

I’m working on Hudsons Escape again. I’ll write more about this fiction in another post, cause I have a lot to say about it!

Also in the works is another Aliens fiction; Unchartered World, it started off as just an exersize in free writing but I got a belter of a review on it, so I feel like I should do some more with it! But I honestly have no idea where to take it! Whoops!!

I’ve also stepped up as moderator for the Aliens Fans group on dA. Hoping to get a few contests going there soon. Hurrah!

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This is the last thing I drew, it’s a picture of Ripley. I’d love to have more time to draw and write, but being a Mum time is one precious comodity. Right now I am enjoying this Aliens high and am intending on keeping it going for a long, long time. When I do more stuff I’ll share it with you here, but it’ll probably be in the form of links to fanfiction.

I tried 3D stuff, but my laptop cried itself into oblivion over the rendering this time around. Not sure why! I might have to try it on the husbands PC at some point, see if I can get something going there instead.

Until next time.

New Life

So recently, everything about my life has changed. All for the better I might add rather hastily.

After a 10 month womb infestation I finally got rid of the parasite that was lurking inside me and making my stomach all big and swollen! I cannot tell you how much of a relief that really is! No more bloated feeling, no more feeling like I can’t eat a decent meal, no more running to the toilet every five minutes to relieve the pressure on my bladder!

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Of course, I say all the above purely in jest. I was actually just pregnant and feeling the woes of it all towards the end. Little Marcus was form 16 days overdue and after much trauma of inductions and trying to be squeezed, and I quote the midwife. ‘Putting a square peg through a round hole.’  So he was born by C-Section on the 30th of March. And after a 6 day stay in hospital (Before and after birth) I was more than ready to come home and start getting life back to the new sense of normal.
There was much crying and guilty feelings because my dog wasn’t at home – I think it was just baby blues being somewhat misdirected towards the missing pack member, but it was really strange going for the first walk without him. I even had dreams in which he was depressed; which was so far from the truth it’s unbelievable! He was staying with my Father-in-Law and his best friend Paddy, so he was fine and being a bit of a terror.

So we jump to today, and it’s my first day on my own with baby Marcus (Who is currently asleep) and Barley (Who is also asleep) and I am feeling a new sense of resolve to try and get things creative done. Pre-Birth I felt a bit low about pretty much everything and motivation felt like the hardest thing to come across ever. So I did pretty much nothing apart from the smallest scrap of cross-stitching ever (Which I managed to bork!)

But post-birth, I have already started to readdress Born to Die and rework it using the Snowflake Method. I’ve not gotten that far with it mostly due to the amount of busy with commission3_copy_by_the_zombie_cat_by_kiz_mit-d9ozsohbaby I have been; but I am feeling good about it non-the-less.

I’m also determined to find my graphics tablet and attempt to do some digital paintings, seeing as it feels like it has been forever and a day since I did any. I think it has actually been some years, so it feels about right that I should attempt some again. Especially now that the whole ‘art career’ thing is pretty much off the cards. I can paint because I enjoy it again. Which will be a novelty!

Until I get anything done myself, enjoy this picture of Nathaniel by The-Zombie-Cat, somehow she just manages to get the look in his expression perfect!

On a hobby note, I ordered some of the Genestealer Hybrids from the Deathwatch Overkill board game to replace my current Psyker Battle Squad. I was using actual Genestealers for them, but they never really looked how I wanted them too; they’re too far gone in the whole Xeno’s taint thing! But the ones from the board game are near abouts perfect for the idea of them. So, under the delusion that I will get the time to make them up and paint them, I brought some off ebay. Hopefully, I’ll get some time to dedicate to hobby stuffs again, seeing as it has been far too long since I did anything model related. I shall keep you informed on how I get along!

A sad, sad day,

Today, I had to block someone on Fanfiction.net.
I find this a sad fact. I’ve been on FF.net for ten years now, and I’ve had my ups and downs on the site.
Today, I had to block a troll.

Trolling is something that I have never really understood, what do people really get out of doing it?

Tears and Rain

I think it might be the end of an era. I real conclusion.
The more I think about the direction I am heading in with Death without End, the more I believe it is that little bit too far.
I’ve dipped into other fandoms before, and while I adore the places I have been with Death without End, I’m just not certain that it is right.
This doesn’t mean that I am about to quit with the track that I am currently on.
I adore the fact that I was recently (A few months ago) married to Rambo.
Details here: http://www.fangirl.biz/2011/06/one-in-which-i-confess-i-am-married-to.html
Yet…
Rambo & Kiz taking on the Zombie apocalypse… as fun as it is to write (I may continue with it anyway) it just doesn’t feel right. It feels like it should be more AU rather than canon.

So what’ll happen with Rhodes?
I’ve honestly adored the time that has been spent being tormented by him. I honestly have.
He has been a stable, some sort of comfort in the years gone by. (In a very strange way)
Lately, he’s not been so demanding of me. Even though I can feel his eyes on me right now, burning with their usual intense hatred. I don’t fear it.
It’s a hard thing to admit to someone that you don’t need them any more and that you have found your true purpose; that one that you need to be there for.

I feel now; that my life and time with Rhodes has finally come to an end.

My Death without End has finally come to a close.

What lies ahead?

Nought but Tears and Rain.