Guest Post – Why do you draw?

Why did I start drawing?

The simple answer is due to an online friend at the time, Sy Swift. He made up a furry/sonic character called Trixie Furr and while I was never really into Sonic myself, we did play Phantasy Star Online together and were in a guild called The Syphid Corporation; which was basically us lot just having a lot of fun writing dodgy ‘fan-fiction’ and drawing. It was all a lot of fun and it encouraged me to start drawing.

Trixie Furr by Sy Swift

At this time I was also at The College of West Anglia, studying Animal Management, thus I couldn’t really avoid animals! Then one day, randomly my real life friend Kat introduced me to the artwork of Twira and Twiztid – two very awesome goth aesthetic anthro artists who I totally worshiped and found a lot of inspiration in.

I think, unlike a lot of more ‘famous’ artists out there I find inspiration in enthusiasm; so the people I look up to, are those who love what they’re doing and can spread joy through their art and this is certainly the feeling I got from a lot of the ‘old school’ artists on DeviantArt and it’s because of them I continued to draw. Enthusiasm and passion is infectious and it certainly got into my bones. Then, a lot of these shining stars left deviantArt for various reasons or another – art theft, life moved on, they forgot; etc.

But rather than fade away myself, I’d gotten into this habit of drawing so I just carried on. I had other interests of course and after I’d decided not to pursue a career in Animal Care, I lipped to photography; enjoying the technical side of photo development and black and white film; while working full-time in a super-market. All the while, sketching here and there – to the point I almost got fired from one job because I doodled instead of working – then I started University a major in ‘Contemporary Lens Media’ at Lincoln; which was a huge mistake really. I enjoyed drawing more than photography but it took a friend to point it out too me. I then took the very big and brave step to change my University degree to Illustration; the interviews were the scariest! I was told I’d be having ‘An informal chat’ with the tutors; which turned out to be a portfolio review to see if I could change onto the course, at that point, everything I had done was self taught and I didn’t even know what ‘wet medium’ was! Yet, somehow, I got onto the course. For better or worse.

You see, I still look back onto the early days as ‘the best’, sure my art style has improved; but I don’t feel as connected to everything as I once did. I can’t say (unfortunately) that there is a particular artist or group I feel a rush of excitement to see when they upload anymore – and I feel bad saying that because it sounds so mean!

Early TragicFangirl Artwork

I think because of this I have tried to find other avenues of creativity to see if I can ‘feel’ something akin to what I used too; such as abstract art and watercolours. I have felt lost at times with my art and that’s a horrible feeling seeing as it is something that I have had in my life since 2003

I think at this point, I continue to draw for my own enjoyment – I have recently come across the realisation that I am best at drawing Pin-Up style artwork and while I know it doesn’t technically suit all of my arty interests, I am finding a great deal of enjoyment in it. I’ve learned to be my own ‘beacon’ of passion and enthusiasm; but it does help to have some wonderful friends to drag along for the ride with me.

This post was written as a Guest Post for The Psychedelic Scrapbookin bubblegum Mama


Inquisitor Jenn and Heretic Deb


It’s only been a few weeks since I drew anything like this and I already feel well out of practise.

But here we are, some fan art for Inquisitor Jenn and Heretic Deb who are characters over on Abaddon and Teal

I know it’s not my best work, but it felt nice to draw something Hobby related again after the few Primarchs I drew – which I will resume when I am feeling less ‘out of practise’

There is another thought to add to this post though and I hate to drag down a gift-art post, but it’s sorta, maybe relevant?
Since picking things back up here and getting back into the hobby full swing, I’ve honestly questioned myself. For a while I wanted to be seen as a credible and ‘real’ artist. But, what does that even mean? Am I less of an artist because I draw characters in the way that I do? I think it speaks volumes the amount of time I’ve been drawing characters; it’s something that I always return to and yet, I’ve always held this overwhelming sense of shame with it – maybe because I know there are a lot better people out there at it than I am. But, does that matter? Clearly, this is where my soul keeps returning.
Sure, I like painting and dabbling in other things, but try as I might to deny myself the chance to draw characters, I return to it. Always. There has to be something in that?

Then there is that ‘elephant in the room’ does everything have to come down to money?

If I am happy drawing characters, why am I trying to replace it with something else?

Photovember #12


So, why has this rather fuzzy photograph made the ‘Photo of the day’?

Well, for a couple of reasons.
I know the writing isn’t in English, but you might notice the name ‘Grahama Mastertona’ on the pen. Which, I am assuming, is Graham Masterton in polish? I was sent an email from the authors mailing list some time last week offering these pens for sale after they’d over ordered for their ‘Written in Prison’ Award.

Seeing as Graham Masterton is really the only author that I still manage to get excited about whenever I see a novel of his I’ve not read, and an author that I’ve ‘reviewed’ the most and talked about the most and recommend to everyone I talk to about reading/books. So naturally, I jumped at the chance to grab one of the pens. Maybe in  the hopes that some of his writing talent will magically flow out of it whenever I use it!

So, that’s why this pen is todays photovember picture.

I’m also now a day behind on photovember, due to the fact that Monday was a bit of a bad day with Marcus being unwell and as such pretty clingy. I doubt I’ll be able to catch up with it, but I think I’ve submitted a few ‘extras’ in previous posts that make up for it.



Photovember #11


I have found a distadvantage of Through the Lens photography – at least in my case – my lenses are in need of a really damned good clean! If anyone has any tips on how to do this I would love to know, because this is something that has haunted me for a fair while now.


And as an added bonus, have a happy dog!


Photovember #10


I managed to get the ‘big camera’ working!!

I use the quote marks because the resolution isn’t actually as good as my compact anymore. But, there is still something very satisfying about using a dSLR; even if it is now 13 years old and probably classed as a vintage camera.

I honestly prefer it’s responsiveness compared to the cybershot and the fact that it is through the lens rather than a screen on the back (which can suffer from glare and being unable to see)

Anyway, because I enjoyed the Eos 20D so much, here are a few more extras.