New paintings? 

I managed to get out in the garden this morning and do some painting. It’s been a fair while since I did anything creative like this, so it was good fun again.

It involves a lot of water and making a mess, so the husband will probably be mortified when I tell him what I have been up too! 

What I enjoy about this process is the fact that it can be so quick and still produce some good results. It can be a bit hit and miss because it involves spraying water over paint and then waiting to see what happens! Sometimes a canvas turns out brilliantly and looks really good and well blended. Other times it turns into a horrible mess and you just end up either having to white wash the canvas or throwing it away.

A couple of these are looking rather promising already – but I’ll have to see what happens when nature takes its course during the drying phase! It’s a big part of why I paint outside; other than to avoid the mess of paint on the carpets, but seeing what that days weather does to the drying paint. It only takes the smallest breeze to push the paint in a way that wasn’t expected. Which is why the wet WIP pictures can look so different to the finished pieces.


I think the darker of the pictures will need some reworking and probably another layer or two to cover the canvas texture, but the other two are looking rather promising so far.

What do you all think? 

I’d love to hear your thoughts. 

A passing comment

I had someone ask me a question over on DeviantArt today – I no longer use dA to share art, but I use it to comment on others works and run Aliens-Fans – and they asked if I did any writing professionally; I shared a chapter of one of my more recent Aliens fanfictions on there which has had some nice feedback on both dA and Fanfiction.net.

It’s not something that I have ever considered before, mostly because I don’t have any formal education for writing beyond Secondary School and even that wasn’t exactly a high-flying, let’s shout it from the rooftops, grade. Maybe because I spent all my time writing dodgy fanfictions rather than pay any attention to what was being taught! I don’t have any burning desires to go back to education right now either, at least not in an established location where I could be surrounded by people! Yet it has planted the seed of writing something original rather than just more dodgy fanfiction.

There is something else too. I was sent an article from the newspaper in the post today – I am still investigating who sent it – about a parent watching their child growing up and where the first year of their sons life has gone and all the things that have changed. The article really resonated with me; to the point it made me cry. It’s made me have a bit of a think about the future and really how I would like to be seen by my son when he is a bit older. Which I don’t ever see myself as being a career driven person, I would like to be some sort of role-model for him. Feel like I can give him something to be proud of.

Yet, I feel like it could be a double edged sword. I have found with art, the further I delve into it from an education point of view the less I have enjoyed doing it. I think there is a certain enjoyment in doing something from a completely naive point of view, at least it doesn’t overload you with meanings or complications. It can be enjoyed rather than sought after with a perfectionists eye.

And I think the truth is, I’m not out to impress anyone. I’ve always written from a purely enjoyment side of things, like with this blog. It’s about me, my life and the steps that I have taken so far. Do I feel the need to be ‘internet famous’ with it? No. It’s a pressure free place right now. Yet, I can feel myself feeling slightly defensive already, guarded against those that would try and bring me down. The inner voice that tells me, “You won’t finish anything, so why try!”

Then again, I guess I could be writing a story about someone teaching an Alien how to take a shit in a toilet and everything somehow feels better again! Even though it’s not nice to slate other people in order to make yourself feel better.

Hi guys,

Been a bit again. It seems whenever I resolved to update the blog more often I forget about it and have to do some sort of grovelling whenever I do come to post here. So maybe I should just stop trying to make that dedicated effort and just post whenever inspiration hits!

After a good while of feeling a bit empty on the fangirling front, I got myself back into my oldest fandom; Aliens.

It’s not a fandom that I tend to do much visual stuff over, mostly becuase I am intimidated by the metric fuck-ton of good artists out there that can do the series justice.

Instead, I write bad fanfiction for it. Haha.

I’ve recently started something called the ‘My 500 words’ challenge. Which is exactly that. You write 500 words a day, at the very least. This is to help me try and get back into the habit of writing again. Fanfiction used to be the thing that kept me going and I’ve been pretty neglectful over it in favour of drawing in recent years. But I felt like picking the hobby up again; especially after the last bout of drama and honestly, I just get a bit pissed off with everything furry. This isn’t anything new. I’ll go back to it at some point, I usually do. I’m just fed up of the imature mentality behind the vasy majority of the furry fandom so I’ll just… leave it be.

So, because of the 500 word challenge, I’ve been doing pretty well at getting things churned out. I’ve written the first of many flash fictions with Lucreace; we’ve got a prompt list and are writing some short stories to go with them. She for 40k Space Marines and I for Aliens. Giving ourselves a 2500 word limit and a week (more or less) to get something done. I’ve only done one, but it’s been a good challenge so far and I am enjoying it greatly – I now have an idea for this weeks challenge so I’m going to get right on it after this blog post.

I’m working on Hudsons Escape again. I’ll write more about this fiction in another post, cause I have a lot to say about it!

Also in the works is another Aliens fiction; Unchartered World, it started off as just an exersize in free writing but I got a belter of a review on it, so I feel like I should do some more with it! But I honestly have no idea where to take it! Whoops!!

I’ve also stepped up as moderator for the Aliens Fans group on dA. Hoping to get a few contests going there soon. Hurrah!

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This is the last thing I drew, it’s a picture of Ripley. I’d love to have more time to draw and write, but being a Mum time is one precious comodity. Right now I am enjoying this Aliens high and am intending on keeping it going for a long, long time. When I do more stuff I’ll share it with you here, but it’ll probably be in the form of links to fanfiction.

I tried 3D stuff, but my laptop cried itself into oblivion over the rendering this time around. Not sure why! I might have to try it on the husbands PC at some point, see if I can get something going there instead.

Until next time.

Alien: Covenant and More Drama

I’ve got to get back into the habit of posting on here! I say this all too often, and while I don’t think updating on a daily basis worked out for me (Burnout much!) I do think posting more often than every two weeks needs to happen. For my own sanity if nothing else.

So, what’s been going on in the world of Fangirl?

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I managed to see Alien:Covenant, and my goodness was I impressed! I am a little late to the party here, but that’s what happens when you have children, so the showing at Beverley ParkWays Cinema was rather on the quiet side, which actually suited just fine!

The film itself was really good and brought up some interesting conversation when we went to the pub afterwards! Finding out who created the much loved Xenomorph was an eye opener and the reasons behind it too. It actually makes a lot of sense to me now as to why the company is so obsessed with them beyond the whole ‘This could make an awesome weapon’ reasons. I don’t want to say too much about it all because I am not one for giving away massive spoilers! But, fi you have an interest in the franchise then I say go see it wth as much enthusiasm as I can muster! Look for the links and remember your lore/history and we could probably have a discussion about how we think the next installment is going to go?

Seeing Alien: Covenant has brought up the rather supressed desire to do more within the Aliens Fandom again, write some fictions, draw some stuff and all the usual fangirly stuff that I used to partake in. Yet, at the same time, I am still tempted to keep myself away from everything like that.

I recently had some drama come up on my twitter account for my furry art, nothing overly interesting – I commissioned someone to draw a picture for me and one of my mutuals left a compliment on it (In a round about sort of way) that they took offence too. The artist tole me theyd be uncomfortable working wth me again if my friends were to leave such comments on her art. As though, I can actually control what people put and have the same opinions as everyone I speak too? Wait a second here? I paid you to draw a character of mine. That doesn’t make us friends! And, why message me about what was written, surely, it’s the person who wrote it you should be telling off… not me!

I just, feel like giving up on this whole art thing online. Everyone else seems to have the strength to just, up and leave it behind at some point in their lives. Why can’t I?

 

 

Update on artsy things

In my recent artistic musings I ran into this guy again. Sabastian has been a character that has always come and gone during my artistic journey. I know for a fact that I have written about him on my blog before. Usually while lamenting the fact that I’ve never been able to finish (or even start) writing the story in which he features.

But it’s nice that he managed to pop his head round the door every now and again to check in. 

I recently redesigned my Fursona. I can’t share the pictures here cause they are nsfw and I don’t want to change my settings to reflect that! I do feel a bit bad about changing her, I’ve had her old design for a long time. I just struggled drawing her old design. Well, her ears! Haha. I have a fair amount of art for her old design though and I drew her up a storm way back when, so I am tempted to redraw some of the original design pictures up again in the new design. See how they compare and how my drawing has improved over the years too. It’d be cool to commission some of the artists that drew her for me as well, again to see how they compare. Ahhhh, pipe dreams! I don’t even know if some of those people are still about over ten years later! 

A journey continued. 

I was 11 when I met you. And I was terrified. I am sure I’ve told you the story before! I’ll have to find it and link back. 

I think that’s how most stories about this particular thing should start. A little fear never truly hurt anyone. At least, it didn’t me, not in the long run. If anything it gave me a morbid fascination that lasted me for a very long time.

Alien: Covenant is out in the cinema this week, and I am nervously excited about seeing it. (Which I am really hoping I can) I’d love to feel like that little 11 year old again, utterly terrified about what is unfolding before my very eyes. And yet, I’m nervous. There is always that underlying worry that something won’t live up to expectations. Mostly because Aliens have been a big part of my life in one way or another and I don’t even know if I can find them scary anymore. Even though they’ve been described as the most terrifying creatures on movie history. To me, they’re home!! 

I’ve never had the pleasure of seeing an Alien film in the cinema. Which makes me rather sad, and I a, pleased that I, finally having the chance to rectify this issue. I saw the AvP films on the big screen but I don’t think that they should count! 

I’m going to try and avoid any film reviews until after I have seen it and certainly don’t wish for any spoilers to come my way! So if you do get to see the film and want to talk to me about it, please check to see if I have seen it or not first! 

I’m just happy that the Aliens series getting another chapter to its glorious heritage. 

A little aimless

I got to admit, I’ve been feeling a bit directionless lately. 

Since closing down all my social media gallery spaces, there has been something missing. It’s been hard to stick by the decision to leave DeviantART, but I still think it was the right choice overall. I’ve missed the interaction a lot as well as the decent people that I once knew on there. I’m keeping in touch with a few of them via Twitter and it’s been a lot of good fun drawing for and with those few. 

I keep looking around for somewhere more suitable, gallery wise, but not come across anything that seems to fit me yet. 

I miss blogging as well, I totally burned out on posting every day on my other blog, so I just archived it here instead. This blog has always felt more like home to me, even if the fangirling has long stopped! When I get to the laptop (rather than the iPad) I’ll post about an awesome blog that you should all follow that I had been enjoying lately that reminds me a bit of what I was like 6 years ago! 

I’m going to try to get back into reading as well. So I can write some reviews. Just get back into the swing of things again.

Also, more art. But I draw a lot of boobs these days so not sure what I have in the ways of age appropriate content!!