The truth is.
I have been hiding again.
From everything that I can.
It happens from time to time I suppose. We all have to have some time out.
There are some days where I just feel lost, others where I feel so angry at everything. I don’t know why, but my frustration seems to get directed at the people who don’t deserve it.
Sorry for that.
I guess sometimes, if would just be nice to have someone ask if I am alright; and for me to be able to answer honestly.
I’m not okay.
I’m scared to death about the future; and the inevitable events that are going to happen.
Someone I know lied to me today. I know they did. They did it for the attention, to make what happpened to them seem harsher. I know that bullying is bad already; theres no need to embelish it further by lying to the people that do care about you.
Especially when you know the person your speaking with it going through some things themself.
Ah well, I guess at the end of the day I’m not the one who will end up alone. I should have learned about them by now.
I should be happy, I know that. I’m doing something fantastic and amazing, but at the same time I feel like the world is tearing apart. The one thing that you thought would be there forever won’t be.
This all sounds rather dramatic I know; but I’ve always found journals helpme sort things out and I’ve been keeping this on board for a while now. So it’s my way of getting it off my chest. Typing stuff; even if you have no intention of publishing it just helps you be relieved of it.
In other news I have been RPing as Frey again.
I’ve always enjoyed the character, so it’s nice to get a bit of time on him again.
Best be off.